Tuesday, May 27, 2008

what will it be this time?

what is this? hehe... this is a bear... yeap
this is my favourite soft toy... and it has a name
it's name is hooli mooli ^^ (mama always call it wooli wooli ><)
and it is going to be 4years old this coming august
why is it so special?
because... it is the ever first soft toy from papa (from what i remember)
when i was a kid, papa never bought any soft toy for us
but... when i was 15 that year he went london
he bought soft toy for us instead of giving us pounds...
but i love it! very very much...
whenever i go... i will bring it along
yes... even when i was in NS!!



and this is hugo... it is a monkey
as you can see it is hanging on the door knob
this is of course also from papa...
we think that he falls in love on buying us soft toys
hugo is 2 years old this year
papa bought this when he went for apec at vietnam in 2006


and this is two two
well again... it is also from papa
he bought this last year when he went to australia
two two is forever 24/7 in my car
well if you have a chance to sit my car
try to search for two two... hehe
but do not think that you can find two two
at the back seats
well two two is a koala bear
so find at some extraordinary place ^^



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well... i wonder what papa will bring back this time...
he is now at ishykawa, komatsu...
could it be soft toys again?? or should i ask him to buy kimono?? ^^
we shall see tomorrow
nah... anything will do... as long as it is from papa... im happy already~~~

Monday, May 26, 2008

变变变

今天是特别的日子,是第100天哦
什么什么100天?自己去想答案咯
看回这100天所写的日记
觉得自己像一条鱼离开了水
除了挣扎还是挣扎
也有一点觉得像在逆行手扶梯
有时想放弃,随着手扶梯而行
有时又想试着努力,到达顶端
自己看了都有点顶不顺自己


今天原本打算去eye on malaysia 的
可是因为某些原因计划取消
然后就相约朋友去海边
但最后临时改变计划
因为天空好想要哭了
最后去了喝茶
喝了咖啡导致现在还睡不着


最后的最后
问题还是没有答案
希望有一天我能有知道答案的权利
离开你以后,不管过多久
心里还是会有那么一扇窗
是留给你的

Friday, May 23, 2008

想对 [NI] 说

想对 [NI] 说声“谢谢
当全世界只剩下黑暗
[NI] 给了我光明
点亮了我的生命
[NI] 聆听我每一个心跳
[NI] 擦干我每一滴眼泪
[NI] 让我有个依靠


想对 [NI] 说声“对不起
一次又一次
我离开了 [NI]
但每当我回头转向 [NI]
一次又一次
[NI] 依然展开双臂
紧紧地拥抱我


想对 [NI] 说声“我爱 [NI]
因为 [NI] 永远都那么地爱我
因为 [NI] 的爱,使我有勇气面对这世界
因为 [NI] 的爱,我知道我不是一个人

Monday, May 19, 2008

o_O

was reading my short stories just now... and i felt something
for once i thought that i feel dizzy and going to faint anytime
but i know and i experienced this once before and now the second time
yes, it is not that I'm feeling sick or uncomfortable
it is the aftershock of earthquake at north sumatra

i can feel it here in malacca
strong and shaky for quite a few seconds... maybe 10
how about those in indonesia?
God, please have mercy on us
we are all sinners and we have done great sins
and yet we did not repent
it offended YOU and YOU are punishing us now

God, please have mercy on us

Friday, May 16, 2008

7月会回来吗?

昨晚应该是今年最后一次一起吃晚饭吧
昨晚也应该是今年最后一次一起喝茶吧
虽然没有机会四个人一起挤车
有一点小遗憾
但是大家笨蛋来,笨蛋去
番薯来,番薯去(特别是扮芒果番薯
还真的很开心一下


今早无法送你啦 (因为下午有考试)
也没有起床送你出门(太早了,4点叻><)
所以你要自己保重啦 不要再像小孩子一样了
吃饱了,还要扮飞机一下 会吓跑病人的

7月会回来吗?><

Monday, May 12, 2008

irreplaceable

I could still remember that day
it was nearly 4years ago... around june... and it was a saturday afternoon
you were waiting for me outside my school... I had came out late
but you never grumble or complain
but something terrible happened on me... I was crying that time
in a very terrible way I can say
I entered your car... and I still remember your expression
you looked worry and wanted to know what happened to me
"who bullied you?" "who scolded you?"
I cry and cry and could not answer your question
I shaked my head
and I know you are in great worry


I was in great stress that time!!
concert in 2 weeks time, piano exam in 1 month time,
pra pmr in 2 months time, and of course
the real pmr exam in another 4 months time
I don't want to let papa and teachers down that time
I also don't want to let you down
as you put high hopes on me also
I had dropped from 2nd class to 3rd class
yes people... please believe it
papa was so disappointed and he warned me
"don't you try to embarrass me again!"


but that's not the main point here
the main point is
you were there for me when I got nobody
and I know
you will always be there for me when I need someone
I dare not to imagine
what will happen to me if someday you leave me
no doubt you will leave me someday but can I refuse to accept this fact? ><

when was the last time I made you a card?
which I used to
when was the last time I gave you a flower?
which I used to
when was the last time I call you?
when was the last time I hug you?
sorry ><
I can't remember
it has been a long long time ago
but that doesn't mean that I don't love you!


I know
I have made you suffer
before I was born
as you carried me for 9 months
and you have to celebrate chinese new year in hospital that time
I have made you suffer
soon after I was born
due to some health problem
you travel back and forth to hospital
and I know
I will continue making you suffer
as I'm now studying and I need lots and tons of money><
but I promise you
I will lessen your burden
and try hard to be a better daughter


just want to tell you that
you are IRREPLACEABLE
you will always be my cute and silly HAMA~~
HAPPY belated MOTHERS' DAY!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

-from your naughty daughter-

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

until that... I will be there

wake me when your heart needs company...
take my hand when you feel lonely...
turn to me when you need somebody...
because 'til time runs out
I will be there for you forever


let me be the one to glow in front of you...
let me be the first to know everything about you...
and let me be the last to go away from you...
because 'til air runs out
I will be there for you forever

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

忘/记

羡慕她
就像小鱼儿
羡慕飞鸟一样
能在空中飞

但是
亲爱的小鱼儿
你忘了
海底还藏着
许多秘密
等待着你
去探索、去发现、去体会

过去的
不能从来
现有的
应该珍惜
不去羡慕别人
因为你有你的世界

谁知道?

花落的声音
秋知道

流泪的声音
心知道

心碎的声音
谁知道?
你知道么?
只有我知道

Monday, May 5, 2008

自我毁灭

害怕没有你
更怕失去你

所说的
所做的
都怕影响你
我顾虑很多
因为我的心再也承受不了
你再次的离去


决定离开你
决定失去你

所做的
所想的
不再因为你
只想为自己
因为我把心给狠狠地砸碎了
从今以后
不再,也不能为谁而动情

Saturday, May 3, 2008

谢谢你

谢谢有你的关心
但我不要
因为我会伤得更严重


谢谢有你的鼓励
但我不要
因为我会变得依赖你


谢谢有你的笑容
但我不要
因为它从不属于我


谢谢有你的消息
但我不要
因为那都是关于她的


谢谢有你的出现
但我不要
因为我会更加喜欢你

我们只是朋友

星星还在
但当时的承诺
已消失得无影无踪...

我不要求你记得你曾说过的
但很抱歉
我不小心把它们给背了起来

这只是一场误会
你所言所举
最终给我的
只有那么一句
“我们只是朋友”

若真是如此
请你停止你所做的
请你停止你的关心
就当是为我 ,
你的朋友...