where to begin?

where should i begin?
here or there?
to the left or right?
i hate life when it comes to a point
where i need to make a decision
i couldnt make up my mind easily
i would wonder what will happen if i turn left?
would it be the same if i've choose the right turn from the beginning?
God, please show me the way


first class of tomorrow will be misai's class
why his emergency leave is not on tuesday but wednesday?
"why.. why.. why.."
"you you you you you and you"
"tell me.. why"


i hope everything will be fine tomorrow.

feel it

When I sing, feel the song that with no melody

When I dance, feel the move that with no soul
When I cry, feel the pain behind my tears
When I laugh, feel the sorrow behind my lovely smile
When I walk, feel the fear behind those steps
When I sleep, feel the worry that last in my head

But when I look at YOU, feel nothing...
nothing but my love to YOU

一碗芝士锔饭+一杯摩卡咖啡+一杯黄梨冰的时间

和老朋友聚一聚这感觉其实真的不错
或许真的很害怕
在不久之后大家想聚一聚也没机会了

说穿了其实我是有一点不想呆在家
再来就是这班朋友不会让我想起烦恼的事
大家就是出来吹吹水，八一八
但就是这些简单的见面
我...珍惜～

猫女郎～还剩8次哦
虽然我知道应该是很难达到
可是我会尽力的～

超人其实也想找个人来依偎

你愿意借我你的肩膀吗？

不再是乖宝宝

对！我就是没去上课
怎样？不给是不是？

对！我就是每天很迟才回家
怎样？你不爽是不是？

对！我吃饱饭没事做特地上KL
怎样？你吹么？

对！我就是没有领导能力
怎样？你又有吗？

对！我没有办法撑下去了
怎样？你又能吗？

对！我就是这种不负责任的人
怎样？你是不是以为我这样子会过得很好？

对！我不再是你眼里的乖宝宝了
怎样？现在是怎样？
现在是不可以这样是不是？
现在是我错完对不对？
现在是我没得声出对不对？
现在是你最厉害对不对？

the prawn behind the stone

"udang di sebalik batu"

pernahkah anda dengar pepatah ini?
sampai hari ini
barulah aku tahu
rupa-rupanya bukan sahaja ada udang di sebalik batu ini
jangan sangka cuma ada udang kecil di belakang batu ini
ada lagi ketam besar yang suka mengepit orang
bukan sahaja ketam
ada juga ikan yu yang suka gigit orang
selain daripada itu, ada sampah yang busuk juga
kesimpulannya
udang adalah kawan kepada ketam, ikan yu dan sampah.

这样的人那里找？

在我伤心难过时他擦干我的泪
也只有他明白我的心情
在我疲惫困乏时他让我依靠
也只有他永远张开双手紧紧抱着我
在我孤独寂寞时他陪伴着我
也只有他永远不会离开我
在我缺乏自信时他用他的话语安慰我
也只有他有能力安抚我受伤的灵
在我困苦哀痛时他成了我的避风港
也只有他的膀背能让我安然休息
在我失落无助时他点燃了希望
也只有他能创造奇迹
在我绝望无心时他为我开路
也只有他所预备的路我愿意走下去


或许我真的应该将所有的重担
都交托给他
让他来解决我的难题
但我想我更应该在我喜乐时
和他分享我的快乐
我想让他知道
因为有他我才能活下去
我的生命才算完整
我得到了最大的安慰与祝福

我想我需要时间沉淀

what will happen after this?

i used to own the smile
that everyone would envy about it
but now i've lost it
to whom? i wish i know

i used to laugh with all my heart out
that everyone would look at me and wonder what's wrong with me
but how can i laugh when i dont even own a smile?

i used to have the life with no worry
people would call me the happy-go-lucky girl
but now they come forward and ask me "where is she?"
the girl that always put on a smile and brighten up their day

i used to have the heart to believe
believe that this is a world that full with love and peace
but after knowing the truth behind
it would be hard for me to love you and you and you

all i want is just a simple life
a life that i can laugh truly from my heart
a life that i can sleep without worries
a life that i can think everything but not you
a life that i can live without my tears

她其实是谁？

她不是当年7岁的小女孩
不说“我不干了”这些话
她知道一旦将责任扛起了就难以卸下
她只能硬着头皮继续走完这条路


她不是一位魔术师
不能“咻”的把烦恼变不见
她晓得烦恼不是垃圾可以让垃圾车载走
她只能默默地载着那无形的“力”


她也不是耍杂技的
无法避免在耍杂技时受伤
她明白自己的能力在哪但情况所逼
她只能舔着自己的伤口过日子


她更加不是大家口中所说的超人
没有办法在遇到氪气石时自救
她深知道自己有责任拯救世界
她只好继续穿着那红色披风

this is not me

am i bad?

i really wanted to help you
but sorry i couldn't
my heart asked me to
but i hesitated when i walked near to you
because i know it clearly that by doing this
it might bring to you some illusion
im afraid it is not what you want at the end
i might hurt you and let you down

please~ do not think that im a bad girl

她是谁？

她是个魔术师
将黑色白色紫色蓝色绿色红色
全藏在皮囊里
拿出黄色给大家
只想让每个人感受她的快乐
你喜欢吗？


她是个耍杂技的
吞剑吞火全不是问题
就算是吞大象应该也没问题@_@
你开心吗？

我要快乐！
但我的委屈和谁诉说？

超人也会生病？

超人终于倒了
发高烧了
也许这是个让超人休息的好机会
但肩上的重担
我还是放不下
实在是太多太多的事情等待着我去处理
@_@

man of steel has finally become tin milo.
such a sad news.

静

与其说
天将降大任于斯人
更不若说
破屋又遭连夜雨

叹叹唉～

taking it off

=(
im taking it off today.
-the end-

*im worry. what should i do?
go see doc =.=

mid term break! *i dont think so

lalala~~ im having my mid term break now.
1month? lalala~~ in your dream.
1 week only. =(
actually im still abit blur at this moment
why? because now is week7 and i start to have my break
kinda dont know what i've done within this 7weeks
and what i've learn during this 7weeks.
haha. i only know that last few days got 3 mid term papers


well..lots of thing to be done within this holiday
lalala~ i have 1 memorial and 4 assignments to finish
mooting, islamic, tort, family, criminal
ahh... not to forget criminal mid term is coming after mid term break


then i have to bring my flying kancil for car maintainance
and air cond.
shit la. means have to spend money again. @_@
and i have to get myself another pair of specs
cannot see clearly with the one im having now
hate my life~~
ahh.. need to go for body check. and my dentist appointment
lalala~~~
where got so much of time?


eeee. have i mention about the camp?
i still got a OC/WC camp at PD this friday until sunday
and my friend's wedding is on saturday
lalala~~~ superman will fly to cyberview and fly back to PD


omg. still have to practice cello.
that day rehearsal is ok. but need to polish to make it become perfect
hope so. O_O
*man of steel will melt someday


omg so wordy this post. ok la. ignore it. bye~
have to start my misyar now.

15 cent

im left with only 15cent
*no kidding it's real
have to ask money from mum :s
im broke T_T


i hate kl life
was stuck in the traffic jam for 2hours plus plus plus plus yesterday
it's just a 5min distance and yet we end up using 2hours plus plus plus plus to reach there
im kinda impress with kl people
how can they live in such a city?
i will be crazy mad if i have to go through this
E-VER-RY-SING-GLE-DAY!
well. luckily im not staying there.
feel like my lungs are filled with all the dust now
and my skin is covered with layers of dirt


well. im not stupid FYI
i know there will be road blocks and
but yesterday was my friend's wedding rehearsal
so i have no choice but to go cyber
and after that we went to the bridal shop
then here comes the traffic jam
!@##@$#$@%#$%^%^#%
cant blame anyone
i have to take my laptop from my aunt
so have to meet her at bukit jalil
ok. long story cut short straight to the point
-->I hate kl life. the end. full stop.


shall end this post with some photos taken yesterday at cyberview lodge
PHOTOS~ CLICK HERE
*it's a nice place ^^ can have your wedding shooting there.